Giving Yourself Permission

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Hello fellow bloggers,

You may notice the environment looking a little different here. That’s because I’m starting a new chapter in life and I thought a new theme seemed fitting.

The last three months have been a whirlwind for me.

Shortly after leaving the Bay Area, I went traveling in Japan and Taiwan for two weeks.

During this time I got to experience two whole new worlds with two of my best friends and it was wonderful and magical (and HOT) in all sorts of ways. I have nothing to complain about.

When I came back home at the end of July however, things took a different turn. I fell into a dark abyss of not knowing where to go next in life. I’ve been on the move for the last two years so it was very strange to be home with no destination calling me next.

I was coming off of a “traveler’s high,” trying to adjust to my old space, applying to jobs, managing some personal health issues, and running around catching up with different friends. I was stretching myself thin.

I constantly thought back to my old life in the Bay Area and all it did was made me feel out of place back at home. I felt like a stranger in my own city for quite a bit.

I told myself to be kind and give myself time to readjust so I didn’t try to look for jobs like crazy and well-meaning friends forwarded me things to apply to, which I did. But, I just had one problem with this.

I found myself applying to things without much of an intention. There was one job that I was really interested in, but the rest I felt neutral about. Then I stopped to ask myself, “Is this really how I want to proceed?” And the answer was no.

What I really want to do is write. For the past two years, writing has become such a huge part of my life. It’s gotten me through my toughest times, my happiest times, my loneliest times and I want to dedicate more of myself to it.

I’m going to give freelance writing a try. I know it’ll be a long journey ahead but it’s something I feel very passionate about and don’t mind risking into. I am very fortunate to be able to live at home right now without the financial burden of rent, and I feel like this is the only chance I will get to do something like this.

So I’m giving myself permission. Permission to dive deep, make a mess and learn. I don’t know where this journey will take me but I knew that from day one that the unknown is all I’ll ever know on the road, and I’m excited to see where I’ll end up.

When was the last time you gave yourself the permission to just make a mess, learn, and discover?

Thank you all for reading thus far.

Sincerely,

HL

 

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